in mourning

my computer crashed.

one minute it was running just fine - 

and the next all i could see was a flashing question mark inside an {extremely annoying} bouncing folder.

i'm seriously sad.

not because i have any connection to that laptop, 

but because i was stupid and never once backed anything up.
not even once.

so there goes all my music, all my pictures from the past four years, and every single

thing i have written during my college career.

yes, that is sad.

i'm hoping i kept some weird folders of papers that i'll stumble upon

or realize i really did develop all of my pictures from china 

{like i meant to} 

or even better - come across an external hard drive that 

i happened to back everything up on in my sleep.

but for now, i will mourn.